Cal's Journal

Barrman and his buddy Brettman slid across the top of the mountain. The sun caressed their faces as the glow in their eyes lit their way forward. The two ski buddies rejoiced in connecting at the top of the world once again.  It had been too long since they’d shared their passion for dancing on the snow. The traverse across the top carried them onward and upward. They came to a fork in the path and elected to push a Read more

There comes a time in a person’s life when our mortality sneaks up on us—a time when we need to look at our health and start to take care of it.  For many men and some women, we tend to put it off. We hope to ignore the passage of time. I’m fifty-three years old and closing in on my fifty-fourth. So when the doctor gave me a form to go and get a stool sample to take in I Read more

Stumpy staggered toward the alley in the middle of the town. His legs were numb, snow whirled through the air and he rubbed his hands trying to find warmth. He rubbed his legs trying to feel them. Cold, so cold. The snow started in the middle of the night, he lay under his cardboard shelter trying to find some peace. Find some sleep. Sleep escaped him when the freeze hit. There was so much wind, and it howled down the Read more

The ball of energy squirmed and screamed. Her cries pierced the air with an explosive vibration. I felt her cry echo within my soul. I reached out and her tiny hand grasped my finger. Silence. Time stood still and we stared into each others eyes.  From that moment on I was hers. My heart, my soul, my very being belonged to her. And she to me. The bundle of newborn energy lay there weak and vulnerable. Yet she held a Read more

Snow filtered from the skies above and coated the mountain with a blanket of joy. Fifteen centimetres of light fluffy powder added to the previous week of winter wonder. The season started slowly, now with all this new snow, the rocks were finally disappearing. Barrman stared out the window of his sister’s car as they rounded the last curves to Big White Mountain. “Looks pretty sweet out there, even though there isn’t much to see.” “I’m excited despite all the Read more

Anxiety courses through my body and my brain. I feel like a failure and yet I know that is not true.  But still, those feelings persist.  “I hate my life” the words come unbidden to my mouth. Yet how could I even think that? I know the truth is I have an amazing life. I have a wonderful wife, a brilliant daughter, and a beautiful home. I have everything I could possibly need.  Yet I feel lost. Adrift in my Read more

“10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 – Happy New Year!” Twenty-four people in the restaurant cheered. And with that, we celebrated an end to 2023 and the start of 2024. But wait, it wasn’t quite done yet. There were three more hours to go. It was only new years in New York. or is it new year? Is it supposed to be new years or new year and why is it a capital? Really when we Read more

December has flown by in the blink of an Eye. I have been so busy renovating my house that writing a big has felt like an onerous task at the end of the day.  Really, it isn’t that hard.  But still, I sit down from all the work I was doing and stare at the screen.  And get sucked into nothingness. Social media, news sites, and other useless mundane things have taken over my daily blog writing. I wish I Read more

Snow fluttered in the sky and the world grew colder by the minute. A winter storm shook the walls and my body felt a shiver pulse through.  Then my daughter smiled and stared at the frozen world. “It’s snowing Dad, time to set up the Christmas Tree,” the energy in her voice changed my mood in a matter of seconds. The snow turned to rain and the world was white no more. None of that mattered though. My kid and Read more