October 11, 2024 Sold

Does anyone else have trouble getting rid of stuff? Do you find it difficult to part with things you’ve bought even though you never use them?

Because maybe one day you will use it?

I sold my camper and truck. It was a difficult process, I went through a plethora of emotions. Regret, fear, excitement and anxiety. Am I selling it too cheap? Is it in good condition? Is it a fair deal for both of us? 

The truck was much harder to part with than the camper. Mostly because I went through a lot of effort to get the truck. I bought it in Alberta and brought it to BC only to find it wouldn’t pass an out-of-province inspection. 

Now the buyer is taking it back to Alberta. What a waste. 

Why am I selling it then, you might ask. It has a deleted exhaust and it blows black smoke. As someone who tries to be an environmentalist, I hated watching the smoke puff out of my truck. Yet it was a really nice truck otherwise. Was I selling it too cheap, should I keep it… all sorts of feelings flowed through me. But why have a dually diesel if I don’t have a camper?

Selling the camper was tough in other ways. We wanted to go camping more, we had dreams of winter camping. Yet in six years of owning the camper, we slept in it maybe ten nights. What is the point? Now we no longer have a boat to haul around why have a camper? We could get a small RV and use it. 

Time to let go of stuff.

Now to release the anxiety flowing in my veins. I still need a truck to haul my boats and use for work. I was using my old Chevy three-quarter-ton and it worked just fine for what I needed. Time to go shopping.

I need to wait for the perfect truck. If there is such a thing. 

My wife keeps telling me it wasn’t a mistake, it was time to let go of stuff. Let go of stuff. What a concept. Time to let go of things we don’t need or use. Even though one day we might…

When the guy came to pick up the truck and camper a part of me hoped he was going to bail on buying it. I hoped we could keep it. But then if he didn’t want it was it no good, was I holding onto junk? 

Talk about a first-world problem.

Every day that goes by I will let go of the mixed emotions. Next truck I buy will be that last one – I hope. It’s shitty I crashed the last truck I owned, it was going to be the last truck I ever had.

It’s just a truck. It’s just stuff.

The only thing I really need is my wife, my daughter and my friends. 

Nothing else matters.